Yeah, that's right. The latest articles box is full of seven reviews. No, they're not long. Remember, I don't like reviews (movie or otherwise) that dwell on plot, setting or characters. Instead, I just want to know if I should see the movie, read the book or eat at the restaurant. And my reviews say all that in the first sentence. For people who want to know any more details, there's a second paragraph, but I only write that for the purpose of avoiding any confusion. (Sometimes bad puns have a way of getting people to think the opposite of what they should.)
I need to clean up a bit in the house, but overall everything is fairly spotless. My desk is barrent save for the tax form I'll mail tomorrow. The DC form already went through and was processed last week, netting me a cool benjamin in the process, which was instantly sucked into the Maw of Money Eaters, namely, my AmEx blue payment. At least I can sleep secure that each dollar has been spent in a worthwhile exercise, namely, in providing my friends with a good time all around.
I'm sure, one day, I'll look back and realize that all the petty problems I deal with on a day to day basis, whether its finding a new housemate, paying bills, or working late at the office one evening, will seem as petty as they actually are. The trick, all things considered, is to realize that everything is temporary. This doesn't mean one should run up huge credit card debts, but still, denying the ability to have fun now for some sort of future "goal" seem too longsighted. I could get hit by a bus tomorrow. I could have a fire burn everything to the ground (Oops! I really need to purchase renter's insurance one of these days...) I could be fired for drug use at work. Of course, I'd have to develop a habit first, but you get the picture. There are a million different ways in which I could lose most of my net worth.
Do I really care about those possibilities? Hell, no. They've done studies to show that people driving cars are acutely aware of risk management from a control perspective. People realize that putting a seat belt on, or having an airbag, will help them survive a crash. They don't view driving slowly, or with respect to the weather conditions, in the same manner, because there is no risk factor they can appreciate. It's kind of like driving quickly through rain
until you start to hyrdroplane. As soon as that happens once, you typically slow down. Of course, this is an idiotic way to mitigate risk, because chances are the first time you hydroplane could be your last. But without the feeling of rubber missing road, or belt-clicking, there is no way for average people to comprehend risk.
If one were to apply that to money, or socializing, it's quite easy to see on a day to day basis that it's far easier to go out every night, to arrange meeting with friends, to busy oneself with occasions over nothing. A Very Merry Unbirthday sounds like a great idea 364 days out of the year. Of course, if ones friends grow tired of such an approach, it could tail off. Fortunately, I'm not in that position yet. However, when I do go out I tend to wish to pay for things, despite my looming credit card bills. (Ask Helena...I tasted her wrath several times for being too generous (aka a sucker) when it came to purchasing food and spirits for friends and supporters. Call it the "wonderful life" theory: the idea that some day, all the debts I never owed but paid anyway, all the small kindnesses, the door-holding, the general niceness, will be paid off in spades. Maybe I'll be holding a hat open and make a million dollars after trying to commit suicicde. Maybe I'll claim to have seen an angel. Regardless, self-interest and generosity are not, conventional wisdom aside, exclusive domains. I
do expect to be paid in full for my acts. Not today. Not tomorrow, but eventually.
That's why I think I am somewhat skeptical of trusting people I don't know well. If I'm going to go out of my way to be nice, it would be pleasant to believe that the person receiving the generosity knows where he or she stands with me. If one breaks trust, it's incredibly difficult to rebuild again. I remember a person from college who helped me out in a jam, after she'd dropped the ball before. I was eternally grateful for her support, but if we were both backs to the wall, I'd probably remember the first instance over the far more relevant second.
I forget, but I never forgive. Fortunately for most, my memory is atrocious.